Monday, October 20, 2008

Adonai

Raising my soul

‘Adonai, you raised from the lower world my soul.

‘Adonai he’elita min shaol nef-shi.



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Friday, October 17, 2008

Crow






a poem from an old crow friend, Bashka.....


Fauve
Caw Caw, Caw Caw Caw.
To com
prehend a crow
you must have a crow's mind.
To be the night rain,
silver, on black leaves,
you must live in the
shine and wet. Some people
drift in their lives:
green-gold plankton,
phosphorescent, in the sea.
Others slash: a knife
at a yellow window shade
tears open the light.
But to live digging deep
is to feel the blood
in you rage as rivers,
is to feel love and hatred
as fibers of rope,
is to catch the scent
of a wolf, and turn wild.
~ Arthur Sze ~

(The Redshifting Web)

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Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Attuning



May God bless you protect you.
May God lift the divine countenance to you
and be gracious to you.
May God's countenance shine upon you
and grant you peace.

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Sunday, October 5, 2008

Being Conscious

You Reading This, Be Ready

Starting here, what do you want to remember?
How sunlight creeps along the shining floor?
What scent of old wood hovers, what softened
sound from outside fills the air?

Will you ever bring a better gift for the world
than the breathing respect that you carry
wherever you go right now? Are you waiting
for time to show you some better thoughts?

When you turn around, starting here, lift this
new glimpse that you found; carry into evening
all that you want from this day. This interval you spent
reading or hearing this, keep it for life --

What can anyone give you greater than now,
starting here, right in this room, when you turn around?

- William Stafford

...from TED.com, Neuroanatomist Jill Bolte Taylor (she is a gift) had an opportunity few brain scientists would wish for: One morning, she realized she was having a massive stroke. As it happened, she felt...

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UyyjU8fzEYU

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Sunday, September 28, 2008

A Visit to Credo Mutwa, African Shaman


We went with John way up to the Northern Cape desert where the rose quartz live. "The Beautiful Ones", Credo Mutwa calls them. He lives there with his Bushmen sangoma wife, Virginia, and her family.

We had to wait awhile until we were received. Mutwa is an old man now and Africa takes her time. So we pottered about in the sun, taking photos of his flamboyant and visionary sculptures, taking in the flat red and dusty earth of the Kalahari and then gathering in the stone healing circle for a sound meditation led by Niyan. That was lovely and we all felt the benefit.

And then the time came for us to meet Baba Credo Mutwa, resplendent and genuine. Cool in his lounge of rich colour, we sat around with greetings, discussions and fabulous stories. Mphephu (an African sage) rising and filling our senses. He gave everyone African names and spoke with urgent pleas to assist the plight of South Africa.

Late in the night a white dolphin came to visit me, she took me to New York City where aliens chased me and I broke their heads off and squeezed their juice out. The following day, we gathered in Credo Mutwa’s temple, a stunning and interesting room again with rich colour. As I looked up, the large painting above me was of...a dolphin, New York City and bad aliens. These aliens abducted Credo Mutwa many years ago and he still bears the scars.

He told us of ancient times when African kings would reconcile over a clay bowl of water which contained 12 of The Beautiful Ones. He told us how to move huge stones with sound and how he cured aids patients. That the Strandloopers (beach walkers) from very long ago were aliens who couldn’t get home and could only eat perlemoen. They were buried in fetal position, sitting up with a perlemoen shell pressed to the ear so that they could hear their home in the stars. All the many stories of the day told with love and sincerity.

Credo Mutwa spoke about how art purifies the blood and that there are certain illnesses that can only be cured by creativity. He also said that if a healer has never been sick then he is useless because then he does not know how to feel. He discussed the healing properties of some plants, Kankerbos, Sutherlandia and Devil’s Claw.

If you would like to contact Credo Mutwa, please email Lyn Spirit Eagle on eaglesnestsa@gmail.com

I share with you, a few colourful images.



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Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Large Hadron Cathedral (LHC).






On a cold and rainy spring day, I arrived at around 6:30pm at the AIMS institute nearby to attend a talk given there on the LHC. After passing the security barriers, I was let in by my friend Andy who works there and had invited me to sit in on the talk. The classroom is quite bare, filled with desks and blackboards, painted that ugly yellow that schools seem to have an abundance of. While tinkering with uncooperative computer equipment, the classroom filled up with mainly young African men and women, and soon the show is on the road.

What is the HLC, and why do we need it? This is the largest scientific experiment ever taken place in the world, so it must be good! It has been planned since the 80's and will run for 20 years, at a total cost of around $6 billion dollars. Which, as was pointed out, is far less than has been used by other sciences, like biotech, etc.

How often one finds that argument being used in such cases. It is like two brothers arguing as to why the one should or shouldn't get such privileges. Why, one could ask, does it make it ok to use $6b on this project because it is less than the $10b used by the biotech industry or the untold billions wasted by the Defense Industry, than for a water project for those who are dying of thirst? It is a fine line of tension we walk between such issues. Though the HLC will probably finance a lot more erudite PhD's than would a $6B water project!

We begin by taking a tour through modern physics. As we all know, physics is about the HOW of things, not the WHY. The latter being the abode of religions. So a large part of physics then becomes tracking and mapping data, almost like a glorified accountant.

The difference is that its goal is to find simple ideas that describe large sets of phenomenon. For instance, gravitational equations explain both the apple dropping to the ground and the moon orbiting the earth. That makes it "good physics". The principle is reductionist: few ideas needed to explain many seemingly disparate phenomena. What I find strange is this: I know that the effect of the apple falling and the moon circling the earth, plus all that is affected by the two events, are very different, so why if the physics of two disparate events are the same, does it make the event seemingly the same? Perhaps that is a different science, and I am confused. But what is fascinating here is that they are both falling, which is only evident from the exactness of the scientific explanation. We know that space-time is bent. Perhaps it is also falling, just like the apple, or just like the moon. However, it is such a vast scale that we cannot see the epicenter.

In the end then, the holy grail of physics is to find the Unified Field Theory: the idea, the set of equations, even one equation, like e=mc2, that will explain everything! That somehow seems awfully monotheistic to me. In fact, we already have an idea of that nature: we call it God, or Allah, or Buddha, or Tao, Great Spirit, the Holy Trinity, Adonai, etc... That we don't have a single name for it, does not mean it is not a single idea, an idea that encompasses all of creation.

But let's get to some physics.




We have 5 forces in the universe:
- Electricity
- Magnetism
- Weak nuclear
- Strong nuclear
- Gravity

We know that Electricity and Magnetism are interrelated, and have identified their basic component – photons - and their behaviour. We find the weak nuclear force, is of a similar ilk, and we call it the electro-weak force. Its particles are called bosons, of which we have the W(+/-) bosons, the Z-boson, and the Higgs boson. All of which we have identified, except for the Higgs boson - and we will come back to that later.

Briefly, Thompson discovered the electron at the turn of the century. Although the electron is most elusive, it is also the one we are closest to, in that it is at the base of all chemical reactions, and is the particle that participates in the most visible interactions around us. With this discovery, everyone thought that that was the smallest piece of matter, the Greek "atom".

So, Rutherford, decided to do an experiment with alpha particles to show this. He bombards the atom with these particles, and, as expected, reads them as they pass through to the other side. Satisfied with his results (which point out that either he was a shoddy researcher, or the instruments that they had in those days were insufficient to be able to register the difference), he was busy working on new experiments when, as the story goes, he was approached by an eager graduate student asking for something to do to further his studies. Rutherford, trying to keep him busy and off his back, suggested that he take the instrument that was reading the alpha particle radiation and walk all around the center taking readings continuously. This was, actually, a brush off. He expected the student not to come back with any results as he was convinced at that point that the atom consisted entirely of electrons. The thing about the alpha particles is that they are fairly heavy and thus pass through electron clouds with the same ease with which we pass through a gas. Anyways, the student, who did not have such preconceived ideas, actually noticed that there were readings on the other side, the side of the source of the alpha beams. That meant that some of the alpha particles were encountering something solid and being reflected back. Like a tennis ball hitting a wall. And now Rutherford is named as the "discoverer" of the nucleus and proton, with nary a mention of the unknown graduate student!

Did he discover it, truly, or did his student? Or was it just a fluke? This story is such a reminder of how often with all our vaunted intellect and knowledge, especially in these arenas, the major "discoveries" have occurred through chance events, mistakes and even dreams. This is what makes me so partial to the doctrine of Divine intervention. Yet, for others, it is just as clear to them that this is evidence of the randomness underlying the universe. But in order to respond to that, we would have to digress into a discussion of randomness...

So now we had a basic description of the atom - with it's electron and its nucleus. However, out of this mix, other elements arose. When the theorists were dealing with the mathematics, they came out with both a positive and a negative solution to their equation. So they proposed a positron - which is an electron, except that the electron has a negative charge and the positron has a positive charge. Then there emerged the neutrinos - electrons, except that they did not have a charge (one could think of them as space fillers). And of course the anti-neutrino, a positron in all but charge.

From all of this complicated mathematics, particles began to fall like snow in winter. Out came the muons, with the same charge as the electrons, except with a greater mass, and the pions, also same charge but heavier mass, though these beasts had something to do with what had become known as the "strong nuclear force". Each of these particles comes with their family, the anti-particle, and their respective neutrinos. Every particle is part of a cluster of these four elements the particle itself, its anti-matter particle, it’s neutrino and its anti-neutrino.

Let us digress a moment before continue with this neat model of the unknown realm of quantum physics. There is a story of science investigating the lobster catch in Maine. For the last 20 years the scientists have been saying that the catch is declining, while the fisherman are saying that it is healthy. The scientists were then lobbying for changes in regulations, and were getting heard by the legislatures. Then came a new breed of scientists who actually went amongst the lobsters, did field research, and collaborated with the fishermen in their research, and came out with a totally different idea of how the lobster lifecycle works and what its model is. So, this makes me wonder how accurate this model could be when we have no quantum fishermen to tell us what is happening on the "ground" in the sub-atomic field.

Well now the Standard Model consists of two classes of energy, the Leptons and the Hadrons. The Leptons are the energy fields of the quantum arena, and the Hadrons are more the actual ripples or particles within these fields.

For Leptons, we have the electron, the muon and the tau, each one heavier than its predecessor. The Hadrons are made up of quarks, of which there are 3 flavours: the up/down, the strange/charmed, and the bottom/top quarks, each successor being heavier. These quarks make up the particles that are the protons & neutrons - which are made of baryons, containing 3 quarks - and the pion - which is a meson containing 2 quarks. Once we include their anti-matters and their neutrinos, we have quite a buffet.

What we are essentially looking at is all light, i.e. elecro-magnetic energy, which in itself is just a wave. Physicists talk in terms of fields like the electron field which exists and spreads across the entire universe. In this field arise ripples, which form the particles that we can measure to some degree. And the Higgs boson is thought to be fundamental to the mass of all particles. The Higgs field being like glue that holds them together. Some particles stick to it and get a mass, others don't.

And now we come to the crux of our dissertation. Through our experimentation we have managed to identify all the particles of the standard model except for the Higgs boson which either doesn't exist or is too heavy to be seen. That is why we needed to build an accelerator that was big enough and powerful enough to register this boson!!

Thus we now have the LHC. Essentially what they are doing is taking two clumps of atomic material, spinning them around for a while in a small chamber so that they can build up speed, then sending them out onto the wider track of 27 km until they collide. At the point of collision they are hoping to dislodge a Hill’s Boson and thus the Standard model will be complete. But, more importantly, they are hoping that out of this collision some other, as yet unknown particles might appear. It is like throwing two balls of matter at one another, just a way of doubling the impact speed, and then doing forensics on the collision.

Well, one could ask, what else is there for them to find. If the Standard Model is correct, it covers all matter, right?

Actually wrong. The matter we "know" only consists of 5% of the matter we have measured around us. 95% of the matter of the universe is dark matter, and we have no way of knowing what it is or anything else about it. We only know of its existence due to anomalies in measurements, due to certain vectors not arriving through spaces that, to our knowledge, are empty! So like children, in our frustration, we smash two pieces of matter together, hoping that if the impact is powerful enough maybe it will reveal some of its secrets. A little like extracting information through beating up the potential informant. Only, I don't think we can really upset or create enough fear in these little demon particles. We might get a surprise at the amount of power they can release – after all, we have always been told that to be completely single-minded, to focus your whole soul and mind and heart combined with pure intention, is immense power.

This brings us to the episode of the Doomsayers. Those that say this could precipitate the end of the world. Of course all the physicist say that this is perfectly safe - nothing untoward can happen, and these are all just irrational fears. However, be that as it may, which famous scientist said, "Anyone who says he understands quantum physics doesn't know what he is talking about?" What about the irrationality and paucity of our knowledge in the arena of quantum physics? Can anyone say the he or she really knows what is going on in that sub-atomic realm? Think of how much energy of the atom is released in a nuclear explosion – and that is only a minute percentage of the energy trapped in the nucleus. And what of Dark Energy - how much of that energy is unaccounted for in the universe?
With the same faith that enables us to get up in the morning, and face the day fraught with potential illness, violence and disruption, we march innocently into these places. It actually reminds me of God’s promise after the floods that She would ensure that the seasons continued and that this event would not occur again.

A number of other topics arose during this talk that I will share with you:

String theory has managed to explain a lot of the phenomenon, and holds, according to some physicists, the most chance of being a theory of everything. It requires 10 dimensions though, which makes me think of the 10 sefirot of the Kaballa.

Another question in the realm of matter/anti-matter asymmetry is why can we only see matter and not the anti-matter? Perhaps anti-matter is indicative of the spirit world, which we know is there, but most of us cannot see, unless we have been “educated” to understand some of the “science” and “mathematics” behind it.

And finally, Einstein's cosmological constant, which he inserted into his general theory to make the results meaningful. It was discredited for a long time, and recently has re-emerged. The only problem is that the experimental values for this constant and the theoretical values do not mesh.

In conclusion, ending on my God as the quintessential reductionist idea, which is the only idea worth spending one's life on, in my opinion, the lecturer pointed out that the inside of the chambers of the LHC are larger than many cathedrals. Suddenly, it went off in my head. These are our modern day cathedrals, that we have put as much ingenuity and creativity into as our fore fathers did for their magnificent edifices to the Divine as they perceived It. These are our efforts to understand and hold some piece of the Divine in our hands, in our consciousness. These are the cathedrals built in support of our modern idea of God, our modern reaching for that singularity, the one idea that will explain all of Creation.

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Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Wednesday, August 27, 2008


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Chuang-Tzu (300BCE)

Translated by Burton Watson
From “The Enlightened Mind” by Stephen Mitchell (Pages 18-23)

Everything has its “that”, everything has its “this”. From the point of view of “that” you cannot see it, but through understanding you can know it. So I say, “that” comes of “this” and “this” depends on “that”—which is to say that “this” and “that” give birth to each other. But where there is birth there must be death; where there is death there must be birth. Where there is acceptability there must be unacceptability; where there is unacceptability there must be acceptability. Where there is recognition of right there must be recognition of wrong; where there is recognition of wrong there must be recognition of right. Therefore the sage does not proceed in such a way, but illuminates all in the light of Heaven. He too recognizes a “this”, but a “this” which is also “that”, a “that” which is also “this”. His “that” has both a right and a wrong in it. So, in fact, does he still have a “this” and “that”? Or does he in fact no longer have a “this” and “that”? A state in which “this” and “that” no longer find their opposites is called the hinge of the Way. When the hinge I fitted into the socket, it can respond endlessly. Its right then is a single endlessness and its wrong too is a single endlessness. So, I say, the best thing to use is clarity.

To use an attribute to show that attributes are not attributes is not as a thin as using a nonattribute to show that attributes are not attributes. To use a horse to show that a horse is not a horse is not as good as using a non-horse to show that a horse is not a horse. Heaven and earth are one attribute; the ten thousand things are one horse.

What is acceptable we call acceptable; what is unacceptable we call unacceptable. A road is made by people walking on it; things are so because they are called so. What makes them so? Making them so makes them so. What makes them not so? Making them not so makes them not so. Things all must have that which is so; things all must have that which is acceptable. There is nothing that is not so, nothing that is not acceptable.

For this reason, whether you point to a little stalk or a great pillar, a leper or the beautiful Hsi-sheh, things ribald and shady or things grotesque and strange, the Way makes them all into one. Their dividedness is their completeness; their completeness is also their impairment. No thing is either complete or impaired, but all are made into one again. Only the woman of far-reaching vision knows how to make them into one. So she has no use for categories, but relegates all to the constant. The constant is the useful; the useful is the passable; the passable is the successful; and with success, all is accomplished. She relies upon this alone, relies upon it and does not know she is doing so. This is called the way.

But to wear your brain out trying to make things into one without realizing that they are all the same—this is called “three in the morning”. What do I mean by “three in the morning”? When the monkey trainer was handing out acorns, he said, “You get three in the morning and four at night.” This made all the monkeys furious. “Well, then,” he said, “you get four in the morning and three at night.” The monkeys were all delighted. There was no change in the reality behind the words, and yet the monkeys responded with joy and anger. Let them, if they want to. So the sage harmonizes with both right and wrong and rests in Heaven the Equalizer.

Chuang-Tzu (369?—286? B.C.E.), Chinese Taoist Master, Philosopher and Comedian.
See The Way of Chuang-tzu, by Thomas Merton, New Directions, 1965, and The Complete Works of Chuang-tzu, translated by Burton Watson, Columbia University Press, 1968.

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Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Zelator


What the Fool exhales, the Fool inhales.
There is no feminine for Fool.
In the Descents, the sex of the Fool alternates.
The inner strives to become the outer.

The Outworld others are self-reflected.
Seeing others as the Self, the soul seeks to make amends.
Balanced again, the Fool descends.
New thoughts become wrought deeds.

All below is image, and names perish.
The Virgin in the Fool's eye does not perish.*
The Virgin Waters generate their own light.
Without separation, there is no illumination.

-- From "The Zelator, The Secret Journals of Mark Hedsel".


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Experiential Session 01




After the eclipse, Julian and Julia - cranio sacral therapist and belly dance teacher, as well as being a great woman - and I had one of our discussion and dance sessions.

We do these every two weeks. The discussions center around the theme of quantum effect, sometime in great depth, ranging from stuff like how photons of light move and their characteristics. We talk about the different energies and frequencies that hold us together. We have covered the types of forces in these nano-spaces. The effects of curved space, light, and crystalline structures, etc. During these session, we often draw pictures of these topics and how we view them. In the final stage, we dance/move the sense of what has arisen for us. We seek to find the expressions in our waters so to speak.

This night we were working with the notion of what it is to measure in the quantum arena (what the physicists would call quantum entanglement). During this discussion, one of our favourite topics, the notachord, arose again. The notachord is an incredible event in the beginning of life in the womb when the cells begin to "spontaneously", as it were, assemble. Another favourite is investigating the equations of the 4th dimension - how that looks to our 3 dimensional minds. Finally we arrived at chaos in conjunction with cosmic measurement, and were ready to dance.

When it came time to move, we decided to work with a chosen space in our lives at that moment. We had determined that each one of us would move authentically, and then each have a turn to move through it in front of the others who in turn would enact and then comment on what they saw.

I decided to map out my mandevilla journey as I knew the path in my bones.

Thus I was able to watch my journey unfold interpreted in front of me, as they had and still have, no idea what they were enacting. They were good! They never missed a step. After, their comments were that there was something feline in the dance. They could feel it in the movements and the fingers which sensed around like whiskers. I saw them go down the vortex and come up. They dance their way through the mountain easily recognising it as such.

Such is our entertainment and lives:))

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